Flightless

“As she came to the premises, my nerves went numb instead”

That sentence is the only thing that represents what happened and what I felt. Instantly, my brain went stiff. All the laughter earlier was gone in a jiffy as I waved my hand to greet her. I didn’t know what to say or what to do. Probably that’s what falling in love feels like.

At one instance, I just realized that couldn’t sit comfortably. My body went hunched. That’s exactly what happens when I lost my confidence. I feel so vulnerable. Not just last night, I still do right now. Finally, got a way to maintain our communication but it just does not feel natural. Strained. Like I’m trying to make something out of a thin air. Like holding sands that eventually escape from your grasp.

I thought that I might fly after everything that has happened but then I understand that wings need to grow naturally and I’m waiting, frantically.